Never Awake

from Songs About Isolation by Emil Beckford

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I'm Emil and I'm sooooo stressed

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There was a time when I could fly and my checked bags weren't the ones under my eyes
When I wasn't racing against time to meet deadlines oo
When I could see the world's beauty not how it's being destroyed by corporate greed
When I wasn't living for the solace of my dreams oo
I'm trying not to think cuz when I try to think, it's feeling like I'm sinking
But when I don't think I'm missing everything, can't keep things straight
My brain is burnt out

Gotta work from home from 5 to 9
Got a mental breakdown scheduled for 10:25
There's no time to pray, there's no time to waste
I'm walking wide-eyed but I'm never awake (Hey)
Oh
I don't care what the doctor said, I can die when I'm dead

I'm scared that social distancing has been siphoning off my empathy
I get your life sucks but you're not alone, what about me? Oo
Business as usual? No thanks, at least not till you tell me how I'm getting paid
Figure that out, I mean right now, my rent's due on the 8th
I'm trying not to think cuz when I try to think, it's feeling like I'm sinking
But when I don't think I'm missing everything, can't keep things straight
My brain is burnt out

Gotta work from home from 5 to 9
Got a mental breakdown scheduled for 10:25
There's no time to pray, there's no time to waste
I'm walking wide-eyed but I'm never awake (Hey)
Oh
I don't care what the doctor said, I can die when I'm dead

I can die when I'm dead
I can die when I'm dead
I can die when I'm dead

Gotta work from home from 5 to 9
Got a mental breakdown scheduled for 10:25
There's no time to pray, there's no time to waste
I'm walking wide-eyed but I'm never awake (Hey)
Oh
I don't care what you said, I can die when I'm dead (Oh)
Day 12 since symptoms presented, it's too late for me I'm dead

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from Songs About Isolation, released May 14, 2021
Music, Lyrics, Vocals - Emil Beckford
Production - Noah Silvestry, Emil Beckford, Thomas Hagen
Guitar, Percussion, Engineering - Noah Silvestry
Mixing - Noah Silvestry
Mastering - Gabi Grella

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Emil Beckford Buffalo, New York

I'm a Buffalo-based alt electronic soul singer/songwriter/producer trying to make music that won't bore me in 5 years. I love synths, fake jazz chords, and singing higher than my vocal chords want me to. I draw inspiration from soul artists, masters of harmony, gospel icons, people who just make you feel some kind of way, and everyone in between. ... more

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