When we were done, it was such a drain
Making you take up less space inside my brain
But if you asked about me, I’d say I’m fine
Cuz when there’s work to do, there isn’t time to cry

So many things pulling at my attention
Constantly living inside of the tension between
What might be best for you and you and what might be best for me
There’s so many people who call me when their times are tough
So what are they gonna do if I’m not strong enough

Trying my best not to have a breakdown, can’t really afford to do that right now
Cuz if I start sobbing in front of a client I might not keep getting paid
Trying my best not to have a breakdown, can’t really afford to do that right now
So I’ll smile a shallow smile and if anyone asks say I’m okay

I understand expressing emotions is important
But next to the problems of the world they seem inconsequential
Like I feel selfish when I get caught up in how I feel
When walking past homeless folx who can’t pay for their next meal

Innocent people overseas die when conflict’s igniting
The struggle for justice we’re tirelessly fighting
Cuz how are we gonna tear this whole racist system down if my sanity’s unwound
There’s so many people who need me to speak up on their behalf
And their situations won’t change if I can’t keep it together

Trying my best not to have a breakdown, can’t really afford to do that right now
Cuz if I start sobbing on the front lines the bad guys’ll make fun of me
Trying my best not to have a breakdown, can’t really afford to do that right now
So I’ll smile a shallow smile and if anyone asks say I’m okay

I can’t stop thinking about you
But I wanna stop thinking about you
Cuz it hurts too much to think about you
I don’t wanna do the future without you
But the future’s still coming without you
So I really need to think about you
But there isn’t time to think about you
And there won’t be if I don’t make time now

I don’t wanna bawl my eyes out (don’t make time now)
What if they see me as weak now? (don’t make time now)
Excuses feel like walls that are closing in on me
So I’ma take a day (or more) to feel whatever way so I can finally say

It’s okay to have myself a breakdown
Cuz if I’m not taking care of myself I can’t be the best me for someone else
It’s okay to have myself a breakdown
Not repressing how I feel about you really hurts, but in time I’ll be okay