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And one day I'm gonna be

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I just wanna be, wanna be h-a-p-p-y with myself
I just wanna be, wanna be h-a-p-p-y with myself

I've been preaching love yourself since I was nine
But it wasn't til the quarantine that I really had the time
To sit in my room and sit with my thoughts and shift all the blame from all my baggage onto myself
Nowadays I'm trying not to get so down
Cuz if I can't forgive myself, it's that much harder to pass around
I'll take a thirty minute shower, clip my nails, delete emails, and take a break from the fake news
Cuz I don't always love myself, but I'm gonna put in the work and fake until I do cuz

I just wanna be, wanna be h-a-p-p-y with myself
I just wanna be, wanna be h-a-p-p-y with myself
I just wanna be satisfied when I look at myself in the mirror
Wanna be h-a-p-p-y cuz I love the me that I see
No more staying up late at night sad cuz I'm alone in my bed
Cuz I got me and that's fine, it's better than fine
It's great cuz I'm happy, h-a-p-p-y

So much of my time I spend pressed about things that I can't control
Like I can't make you text back or check that DM or make you read things a certain way
And it's so easy to feel that when I don't get as much as I put out that I don't deserve it, but
Regardless of whether anyone else sees the value in me,
I still believe that I'm beautiful and I can make my dreams a reality
I had my cry and that was fine but now it's time to move on, that's your loss not mine
Cuz all this love you could've had, I'm putting it back into the world
And to make it more effective, I'm starting with me first

I just wanna be, wanna be h-a-p-p-y with myself
I just wanna be, wanna be h-a-p-p-y with myself
I just wanna be satisfied when I look at myself in the mirror
Wanna be h-a-p-p-y cuz I love the me that I see
No more staying up late at night sad cuz I'm alone in my bed
Cuz I got me and that's fine, it's better than fine
It's great cuz I'm happy
And one day I'm gonna be

I'm just gonna be, gonna be h-a-p-p-y with myself
I'm just gonna be, gonna be h-a-p-p-y with myself
I'm just gonna be satisfied when I look at myself in the mirror
Gonna be h-a-p-p-y cuz I love the me that I see
No more staying up late at night sad cuz I'm alone in my bed
Cuz I got me and that's fine, it's better than fine
It's great cuz I'm happy, h-a-p-p-y

credits

from Songs About Isolation, released May 14, 2021
Music, Lyrics, Vocals - Emil Beckford
Guitar, Vocals - Ben Cohen
Production - Emil Beckford, Thomas Hagen, Noah Silvestry
Engineering - Noah Silvestry
Mixing - Noah Silvestry
Mastering - Gabi Grella

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Emil Beckford Buffalo, New York

I'm a Buffalo-based alt electronic soul singer/songwriter/producer trying to make music that won't bore me in 5 years. I love synths, fake jazz chords, and singing higher than my vocal chords want me to. I draw inspiration from soul artists, masters of harmony, gospel icons, people who just make you feel some kind of way, and everyone in between. ... more

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